Team Golden

I must be close because I see sacrifices being made beyond my control. Give yourself some compassion. We all make mistakes. There are some things that if we had to do over again, we would do differently. Ask yourself...what did I learn? What's my stretch goal? Where do I go from here? If you can answer these questions...give yourself a break. You Deserve it!

Welcome Back Kotter!!!!!!!! =)

Good afternoon! Back @ work & I still feel a little off. That's great compared to when I was WAAAAAAAAAYYYY off!! LMAO!! Lil jokey joke there. 

"Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy. Human beings have the awesome ability to take any experience of their lives and create a meaning that disempowers them or one that can literally save their lives. (TR)". 

I'm believing in my power to be FABULOUSLY GOLDEN! Don't let anyone take your shine & bring you down. Get back up..lift your head to the sky & declare your destiny! Some haters can see your success before you do & will try to stop you. If you're looking up at the sun & the stars you won't notice them below you!!!!!! =) Life is to short for the bullshit! Be yourself, make your dreams come true, and keep it moving. What's meant for you is meant for you and that's it. If people have hidden agenda's the truth will always come out sooner than later. But that should not stop you from your purpose. Don't even let it delay you! Stay focused, stay true to yourself, and be happy! Also karma has a way of showing up and showing out! You don't worry about it...worry about yourself! Progress...Purpose..Possibility!

 

HAVE A GOLDEN DAY LOVERS!!!!!!!!

GOLDEN RULE...

“When work, commitment, and pleasure all become one and you reach that deep well where passion lives, nothing is impossible. There are three ingredients in the good life: learning, earning and yearning.” Love Your Life & Yourselves & Have A GOLDEN Day Lovers!!!!!!!!

Quotes To Live By...

Life's problems wouldn't be called "hurdles" if there wasn't a way to get over them. Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending. If you want to make your dreams come true, the first thing you have to do is wake up.

Quotes To Live By....

There is nothing more beautiful than believing in yourself. It took me a long time not to judge myself through someone else's eyes. It's time to start living the life you've imagined. Love Your Life & Yourselves & Have A GOLDEN Day Lovers!!!!

GOLDEN RULE: LIFE

VENI, VIDI, VICI...I CAME, I SAW, I CONQUERED! #GOLDEN LOVE YOUR LIFE & YOURSELVES & HAVE A GOLDEN DAY LOVERS!

QUOTES TO LIVE BY....

He who knows others is wise. He who know himself is enlightened. If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself. Love Your Lives & Yourselves & Have A Golden Day Lovers!!

GOLDEN RULE: LIFE

The best thing to give to your enemy is forgiveness; to an opponent, tolerance; to a friend, your heart; to your child, a good example; to a father, deference; to your mother, conduct that will make her proud of you; to yourself, respect; to all men, charity.
Benjamin Franklin

GOLDEN RULE: LIFE

"Think like a queen. A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another steppingstone to greatness." (Oprah Winfrey) A woman is but the product of her thoughts; what she thinks, she becomes. A Queen never settles for less. Are you proud of yourself? Do you strive for excellence? Do you present greatness & pride?....You Should! Keep Living Your Life Like It's GOLDEN!

GOLDEN RULE: PHILOSOPHY

 #GOLDEN: By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest. Be mindful of the company you keep & how you present yourself to the world! Reflect only GREATNESS! Love Your Life & Yourselves & Have A Golden Day Lovers!!

GOLDEN RULE: TRUST

I know I've never been great at trusting ANYONE! I wasn't raised that way but I've always tried to give people the benefit of the doubt. Some have proven untrustworthy and were kicked to the curb! IMMEDIATELY!

And others have proven themselves through the test of time. I don't know if I'll ever completely trust anyone. It is not an easy thing to let go! I was raised to keep a close on eye on people, never trust them, and if you want something done..you better do it yourself. I was taught how to scream & yell and use force if necessary to prove myself the bigger person. I've been taught people do not give a shit about you. I've been taught people will lie & deceive you! Will look you dead in the eyes with a serious face lie!! I can't stand that shit! I hate for someone to be on there soapbox made of shit & turn around & be the very one full of shit! (just being real)!

And to some extent this may be true! I..being so optimistic believes that it's not true for EVERYONE! & they are not the masses!!!

I am learning in small dosages that somethings I have NO control over. But I can control my life and how I deal with things & people. The only force I will use is the force of Luke Skywalker and use it to propel me into success!!..LOL!! My energy will be used for purpose. God has given me a gift! It has purpose..I have a mission & must reach it & stay on the path of my inner peace and well being!

Whatever is meant to happen will happen ...that's God's control. How I react to it is my control. I choose to continue to trust me...and keep moving towards my dream. I want to make feature films..I want to be in theaters...i want to reach many people & have a positive effect...I want to make history..and I will and I am...
Life has lessons...I'm just learning to take notes, good notes!!..LOL!! With highlights!! LMAO!!


With that said..& that's a lot............never lose sight of your purpose & your happiness!
Everything is just extra!!!!!!!

Love Your Life & Yourselves & Have A Golden Day Lovers!!!

Quotes To Live By...

All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was.  I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory.  I was naïve.  I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer.  It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with:  that I am nobody but myself.  ~Ralph Ellison, "Battle Royal"

Quotes To Live By...

 

“A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes.”  -Hugh Downs

Can't Be A Fool...Ever Again!!!

 Never forget who you are! Don't get so lost in someone else that you don't recognize yourself in the mirror! Before that "love" or significant other..were you happy? Did you have dreams and goals? Are you trying to achieve them? 

I have learned & I am still learning that (my favorite line) "I never did mind the little things!" People only do what you allow them to do! If I don't like something I say it! If I do I do. I am a very vocal person when I want to be. Some people can't handle that & that's fine don't..do you but don't criticize me for being me! I'm doing me! Like Luther says (God rest his soul) I just want to be a fool..never again! Can't be the fool! I know I am a great person. I have my faults but I'm human who doesn't? No one is perfect but I am learning to be a better woman, mother, business woman, sister, & friend! 

So with that said in the words of Kanyeezy..

"I’m living the future so the presence is my past...My presence is a present kiss my ass"

lol....that's a lot said..Chynna is getting back to Chynna..but then again have I never been?..

I refuse to play the fool for anyone or let anyone think they have the upper hand! God controls my life not man or any man. I love & I love hard but I will not be a fool..ever again!

Never take advantage of a good person...you just may lose that person to someone else who appreciates them more!! =)

Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response. All that I am, I am because either way, things are a lot better - either a lot better than they were or a lot better than they're going to be. Never violate the sacredness of your individual self-respect. Love Your Life & Yourselves...& Have A Golden Day Lovers!!!!

FORGIVENESS...FAMILY...LOVE!!

At the end of the day, a loving family should find everything forgivable. In some families, please is described as the magic word.  In our house, however, it was sorry. Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.

This past weekend I met my cousin Juanita & my future brother-in-law Miguel, for the 1st time and saw my sister Andrea, whom I haven't seen in years because of a ridiculous lie. 

I've been taught to be angry, to yell, to scream, to get revenge, to hate, and so many other bad habits. Since my 30's...I'm learning to undo those bad habits & create positive ones in my life. My home life was unstable. But outside of that life made since. Outside of my home & family..I had friends & strangers that I could be more positive. People that I could inspire that would balance all of the negativity surrounding me. I could be that motivation that would spark the ripple of joy in someone's still river. It was so easy. But yet I couldn't be that ripple in my own river!?

I was so nervous before I got to my brother Mark's house because I wasn't sure of the outcome. I prepared for the worst? I would never tell anyone to do that though? I'd tell them to stop thinking like that & stay optimistic..prepare for the best outcome. Yet I couldn't find find the optimism in me? Thank God for Marshall! The love of my life. He is truly my angel! He is my optimism. He is my positive reinforcement. He is my inspiration. My spark of motivation. He YELLED me the whole time!..LOL!! He was the kick in the pants that I needed to cut the BS out!!  Poor Bridgette my sweet angel..tried!!  =) Bless her heart! =)

Now I hate to tell anyone they're right because I'm ALWAYS right but lately I've been very comfortable with not always having to be right & to respect other views. I trust his judgment & he was right! There was so much love & forgiveness & healing in that room that day that even as stubborn as I am...I immediately was at PEACE! I was healed. There was love & I enjoyed in it! I soaked it up with my very being! I realized that I am not always right & I need to learn to be more humble to forgive & to move ON! There is no progress no purpose with out forgiveness. The tears in my brother's & sister's eyes melted my cold hurt heart ...WARM. 

Thank God for pictures! lol..As I look at those pics from that day..my heart melts each time & I just want to hug & kiss my brother's & sisters & tell them..we are going t be just fine! I want to reflect the love that they give me! 

Marshall taught me that! Even in the storm just hold me & tell me everything will be just fine!! Do you see why I love that man so much??? Isn't he just delicious?! LOL!! He has just been such a wonderful blessing in my life. Without him, I don't think I would have gotten here!! 

I recently called Kendahl & Vern too. Sometime ago we got into a disagreement & instead of me working through it..I just let it go. Walking away was always so much more easier for me to do. But I missed them terrible & I would think about them often. & I realized "Fool your ego, stubbornness, and pride is going to cause you to end up alone & bitter & hurt!" 

People that mean the most to you are going to hurt you at times because THEY LOVE YOU & are trying to protect you! If they didn't love you, they wouldn't say anything! I get it now! 

Communication, humbleness, forgiveness, love, and an open heart..as well as an apology or two..HEALS THE PAIN! So I called them and apologized!  And soon with Kinu..we will be traveling..to see them! I can't wait! I just want to give them both a big hug & say I love you!

2011 has started off beautifully..praying the rest of this year will be the same if not better...& I'm positive it will be!! Growth..Possibility...Progress...Purpose!!!

 It's such a wonderful feeling. So in our household...LOVE is taught! Laughter is taught! HEALING is taught!! FAMILY is taught to stick together through good & bad times!!! Reassure each others safety & know that EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE! WE ARE GOING TO MAKE IT! All Marshall ever wanted was to be happy..all I ever wanted was a family... HAPPY FAMILY..isn't that a great combination for life!

I know I'm not perfect. I know have many faults but I recognized them & I am correcting them & learning from them! I am seeing the life I've always wanted & I am grateful! I have a HUGE family & we love each other....& I'm grateful!!!! & I'm growing!! =)

Shout Outs to my Loves...

Marsh

Mark

Bri

Fe 

Dre

Nita

Miguel 

Kendahl

Vern

To my other family members..I love You & we will be just fine! I apologize for any pain I've caused you...and I forgive you for any pain you've caused me!!! 

Everyone else.....See You Soon!

Life..it's not easy...but it works!..LOL!!

Love Your Life, Your Family, & Yourselves....& Have A Golden Day Lovers!!!!!

Quotes To Live By....

 

We all grow up with the weight of history on us. We were a strange little band of characters loving, laughing, defending, & trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. In some families, please is described as the magic word. In ours, however, it was *sorry*. You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. 

Love Your Life & Your FAMILY..& Have a Golden Day Lovers!!

Quotes To Live By....

Genius, by its very intensity, decrees a special path of fire for its vivid power. Talent is that which is in a man's power; genius is that in whose power a man is!! Love Your Life & Yourselves...& Have a GOLDEN weekend Lovers!!!!!

Quotes To Live By.....

It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you are not. You were born an original. Don't die a copy. Don't be the person who makes the same resolutions every year. Be the person with the list for life..& scratches them off 1 by 1 as you achieve them!! Love Your Life & Yourselves & Have A Golden Day Lovers!!!!!

Quotes To Live By....

Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene. We all live under the same sky, but we don't all have the same horizon. Love Yourselves, Love Your Life, .....& Make It Golden Lovers!

Quotes To Live By....

“Permanence, perseverance and persistence in spite of all obstacles, discouragement, and impossibilities: It is this, that in all things distinguishes the strong soul from the weak” ~ Thomas Carlyle~